sometimes when we feel heavy emotions, it seems like they pin us down, corners us, the heaviness is inescapable. However, if you think about emotions in general including the heavy emotions. Emotion is not a being of its own, it doesn't have a mind of its own, it doesn't have a purpose of its own, it doesn't have a will.
As children, we are physically and mentally limited. Therefore we rely on our parents to care for us. We learn to trust and depend on external factors, to feel safe. As a result, we find ourselves continually expecting the feeling of safety to come from the outside.
What stops from doing what we want? What prevents us from planning and executing our plans? Is it boring work or forgetting about the big picture while doing the tedious work day after day? What puts out our flame of desire? Why we get to a point from which we no longer understand why we do what we do?
What does it mean to be home? What do we consider as a home? Where is home? Some will say - Home is where the heart is. But for most, that's just a metaphorical saying. Being inside owns heart has many interpretations. Our search for a home begins from the moment that we can sense danger, but not necessarily the kind that can physically hurt us.
The inner sense of satisfaction cannot be ever satisfied if it depends on the changing circumstance.When we seek to feel good about ourselves and look to get this feeling from the outside we fall into a trap. The problem with the outside is that it is always changing. So we find ourselves chasing what is always changing, never knowing how to stop because if we stop, what will make us feel good about ourselves? - You don't have to chase your happiness anymore.
When looking to heal we face our mind's thoughts and opinions about our own situation, health and status. We stick and follow guidelines that we believing are important because they guide us in our lives. However when our reality doesn't meet our own set guidelines, we find it very difficult to focus on healing and moving on. So what can we do?
Play the game of life. There is no other choice really, other than this. Sure you can have various spiritual awakening experiences, have different realizations about what is going on with you and life in general. But at the end of the day, that's all it is, passing experiences. You are still here, with your body, after all your aha moments, visions, and enlightening experiences.