Tag: security

Addictions Fear Personal Growth

A New Beginning

Since when did I become unimportant? Since when what I want doesn’t matter? Since when I only care about pleasing others? Since when I decided to compromise on what I want? I forgot what it’s like to give myself what I want. To give myself what I want when I want it. I forgot how it is like to stand on my own. I forgot what it’s like to be me around other people. When I’m around other people there’s no real me anymore.…
Fear Health Personal Growth

Do you feel safe when you say – Security?

What is future security? What is, future certainty? Is that even a real thing? What if this fear about the future became reality? I must do something right now to prevent something happening later. I’ll create security right now for later. Because later might be too late. Later the fear will be real. I would regret not creating this security for myself when I had the chance. Are you listening to yourself? Since when you’re the oracle…
Job / Career Money Personal Growth Relationships

Can I schedule life for later ?

The sooner I reach my goals the sooner my life will begin The real life The fun life The abundant life This is my belief But life is now And now And now No matter what I think or do No matter what I accept or not If I judge or not If I’m ignorant or aware Fun or boring Irritated or in comfort It’s all a part of life Life never stops for me I can’t press pause on life and resume it after I reach my destination. Life will never wait for me to accomplish…
Fear Personal Growth

What is your source of safety ?

Is this ok Is that ok Thinking you’re being polite? Or being cautious? Looking for approval Anywhere you can get it Can this approve of me Can that approve of me Is this ok Is that ok Approval. For me, it was when I got scared of being yelled at for doing something that someone else disapproved. That, someone, was very important to me. It was my source of safety. When your source of safety stops working. You fear for survival. You would do anything…